Not for the FAINT of Heart

One thing I didn't expect would be the random fainting spells or the crazy dizziness that would become my norm. I would randomly be standing around doing something as simple as brushing my hair, and here it comes. The loss of breath, my heart feels like it's beating so fast it's about to come out of my chest, the dizziness, and then the tunnel vision. If I don't hurry up and find a safe place to sit down, I'm afraid that I'll just pass out and hit the floor and probably hurt myself in doing so. This happens to me a few times a week, and it's seemed to get worse with each passing week.

My energy seems to be soo drained that I feel like I can barely do anything without wanting to pass out or just lay down and sleep the entire day. This gets in the way when I want to try to do something productive. It's like, I try, but then the baby is like "Oh no you don't" then he/she proceeds to suck whatever energy out of me that I have left. 

I don't understand where those women that seem to have an endless supply of energy and motivation. It's making me feel like I'm lazy, but it's not like I am doing it on purpose. I mean, I try to get energy, but it's hard when I can't seem to keep anything. At my last appointment, the doctor said that we have to monitor it, because I'm not really gaining any weight, in fact I'm losing weight. I have another appointment on monday and hopefully she has something better to tell me than "let's monitor it". 

I am tired of not getting any real answers. I understand this is my first pregnancy, and there are going to be a lot of unknowns i'm going to face... but jeeze. Can I get a simple explanation of what is going on with me?? Can I get a prescription for my nausea that I don't end up puking up therefore defeating the purpose of having it? Am I allowed to take something stronger than Zantac 150 for my heartburn because that shit aint working. 

I could have sworn the 2nd trimester was supposed to get easier than the first. But it seems as if as time goes on, I've gotten worse. I've gotten weaker, sicker, and just sooo agitated it's ridiculous.